Life is full of choices. And they’re all choices we have to make, whether we like it or not.
Last week, I chose to apply for a job at Half-Price Books as Jenn. Well, as much as I could. The app still had all my maleness strewn across the pages with reference to history and such. The answers to the questions were very much Jenn-isms….
When I got called in for an interview, I had another choice to make. Male or female. It was a tough decision to make, but I ended up going in as my male persona. The interview went well enough. As I interviewed, I kept thinking to myself that I should have gone as Jenn. Jenn is who turned in the application and all three of the managers have waited on me as Jenn (though none of them looked like they knew that). I was clearly not happy with the choice I had made.
Waiting to hear back has been excruciating, so I decided to head down today to speak with them. I chose to go as Jenn. I didn’t want to dress as nice as I did for the drop off, so I went with what I thought was a bit of a dressed up but dressed down look. A rocker chick look. Black jeggings, boots, shirt…..well, see below.
As I wandered through the store, to see if there happened to be anything I couldn’t possibly live without, I was approached by a gentleman so exclaimed, “Damn! You look really good in those tights. Seriously. Too hot for words. It’s a sin how great you look in those.” I thanked him and he continued to exclaim as he headed for the door, after paying me a little more attention. I have no idea if he knew I wasn’t a GG, but I don’t care. It wasn’t abrasive and it made me feel good.
I continued to look around and saw my friend who works there. It took her a while to recognize me and she exclaimed, “You look AMAZING!”. So maybe he didn’t know, after all… Anyway, we talked about the job and how they haven’t said anything yet. Unfortunately, none of the managers were working at the time. 😦 I really wanted to speak with them. My friend said that they would have NO problem letting me work there as Jenn. It’s how they are as a group. As a store. As a company.
I may try going down one more time as Jenn, to see if they’ve made a decision, or a choice, if you will. 🙂
I should add. If I am able to work as Jenn, it will be my coming out to everyone, and the opening of the door for transition. I have friends that frequent HPB and I will have to tell them prior to them popping in and seeing me. My fingers, legs and eyes are crossed for something good….